When years pass by like days
In my hand your hand is placed
That beautiful smile that crosses your face
Your simple touch still makes my heart race
I can see my soul in your eyes
I don’t think you will truly understand
How you touched my life & made me who I am
I don’t think you will ever know how truly special you are
Even on my darkest nights you’re my brightest star

So, I've been starting to realize how hard life actually is. It can be going PERFECT one minute, and then the next SNAP, something happens and something goes wrong.

I felt the most amazing feelings I've ever felt today, It's been like I've never felt those feelings before, and that I just didn't want it to end. I don't want it to end, and it's still there, just not as strong inside me at the moment. I don't know where it came from or how it happened completely, but I knew as soon as that feeling hit me that something was going on ( a good something going on.. this time anyways) I really don't know how to describe it, but i sure the hell wish i could. The only word I can come up with is passionate.

SNAP..

That feeling of everything going right just suddenly got SNAPPED away, in the blink of an eye. It was gone before I knew it. One little mood change, and things just explode. I really don't understand why this has been going on, I don't get it all. Maybe one day I will understand it, who knows. I deff don't.


Anyways,
Thats all for now I suppose.



On a brighter note :: It's my spouses 19th birthday this Saturday, I hope everything turns out and goes as planned. :) I have a couple of plans , but I don't know if they're going to follow through or not, it all depends on what actually happens. Also, The spouse got a job too, thats pretty exciting. :D & one more thing, It's my sons SECOND Easter this year. =] <3 iloveyouSOmuch Kxw & Dxw <3

The days get longer and the nights grow colder. Each night i have you by my side i cherish every moment of it, rather we're just laying next to each other, or tightly wrapped in one anothers grip. I long for the nights being back in your arms and not having to worry about the next morning getting up and ready and out the door. I'll be complete once we have our moments back of just laying in bed throughout the night wrapped up in each other and watching movies. I can't take this distance. Your so close, yet so far away. Your not out of my reach, but sometimes.. you are. I'll get a better grip, and ill hold on tight. I know this is something thats right.

I won't give up, nor back down.
I'll continue to fight this battle, until we're back as one.